4/25/12

There was this girl who was falling asleep in front of me at the library today.

She looked so determined when she sat down at first, carrying her textbooks and backpack with her small body.

She was probably working on a school project or something that required a lot of reading. 

She put her head down. I was worried that she was crying. Maybe the assignment was too difficult for her.

But oh wait. She was just asleep. I think it’s after that when she realized she was falling asleep too much. 

Forcing her eyelids to stay up, trying to sit straight, rearranging her textbooks.

So much to do to stay awake!

Then she fell asleep again. Her head moving back and forth. 

I realized then.. that I probably look like this in half of my classes.

What a mess I am. I just hope that girl gets enough sleep tonight or something.

And you know, I notice the smallest things ever.

I wish I didn’t sometimes.

Like when a specific person gets online when another one gets on.

When that person always looks at the girl whenever there is a chance.

When they walk together.

I kind of don’t want to notice those. They irk me and I don’t like that. 

And when I care about so many other people, and they don’t.

I wish I was oblivious to that also. It makes me feel shitty.

The world would be a happier place if all of those things didn’t matter to me.

Whoever said ignorance was a crime is wrong. It can be a bliss.